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Saturday, August 28, 2021

Blockbuster Update

Blockbuster Ch. 16 on FFn



Bella

Flashback

“Dad, I don’t understand why you are so insistent about me going out on dates,” I argued, huffing on the couch while I waited for Jacob to come pick me up. He was taking me to a bonfire on the beach at La Push. “I should be here, taking care of you.”

“I’m fine, Bella,” Dad said “I have my cell phone and I have a night nurse coming over to check on me. Leave the door unlocked, sweet girl.”

“Why should you pay for a night nurse when I can take care of you for free, Dad,” I huffed. “I’m staying. I’ll call Jake and …”

There was a knock on the door. My dad, despite his body being ravaged by cancer and its treatment, he got up with a bright smile and ambled to the door. “Jacob! It’s so good to see you, son! How’s your dad?”

“He’s good, Charlie,” Jacob answered, shaking my father’s hand. “He’s going to try and visit you soon.”

“I hope so,” Dad nodded, his energy waning. He gripped Jacob’s arm, but Jake shook him off. I ran up to my father, giving Jacob a scowl as I helped him my dad to his recliner, which had become his bed since he could not climb the stairs to his bedroom anymore. He also refused to get a hospital gurney set up in the living room, claiming his recliner was comfortable. “Thanks, Bella. You have fun with Jake.”

“I’ll be home in a couple of hours,” I said, kissing my father’s gaunt cheek. “You have my cell phone number, right?”

“I have cancer, Bells. I’m not stupid,” Dad snorted. “I still have my mind. The cancer hasn’t spread to my brain.”

“Daddy,” I growled. “Not. Funny.” I hugged him tightly. “I love you, Dad. I can stay.”

“No, have fun. Your senior year has been awful. You deserve to have some fun,” Dad said, brushing my hair back. “Treat my girl good, Jacob.” I walked to the door, grabbing my jacket.

“Always, Charlie,” Jacob responded, giving him a smirk. “Come on, Bella.” He took my hand once I had my jacket on. He pulled me out of my house. “I know your dad is sick, but have some fun with me tonight. Drink some beer. Have a joint.”

“No, I have to stay clear-headed, Jacob,” I sighed, getting into the passenger seat of his decrepit VW Rabbit. “When I get home, I have to make sure that I’m able to hear my dad if he falls or something. His balance is not there and he gets confused.”

Jacob rolled his eyes, backing out of the driveway. “Bella, I know your dad is sick, but you’re still a kid. Cut back … hell, let’s explore what’s brewing between us.”

“What are you talking about?” I asked, arching a brow at Jacob. “We’re friends, Jacob. We went to homecoming, but …”

“Come on, Bella. I can see you checking me out,” Jacob smirked, his expression dark, predatory. He licked his lips. I shuddered, not wanting him to touch me. “You want me.”

“I want you like I want a hole in the head,” I muttered under my breath, staring out the window.





Saturday, July 31, 2021

Blockbuster Update

Blockbuster Ch. 12 on FFn



Edward drove us back to his place. I’d stayed quiet during the drive and thought about the man who reminded me of my past. I was totally shaken by seeing Paul. Paul Lahote grew up in La Push, but was older than me by at least ten years. His dark skin, bright smile and rough voice reminded me so much of both Jacob and Billy. It brought me back to when I was a teenager, grieving and terrified that I was pregnant.

It brought me back to when I worked my ass off to have most of my paycheck to be taken away by Billy and Jacob for the most inane, unnecessary things, leaving me destitute, and running from Forks with the cash from my boss at Thriftway to flee from the nightmare.

Only to begin a new nightmare.

I ran my hand over my stomach as I got dressed in a blue retro-inspired dress to go The Ivy. My belly that would never hold and protect another baby because of those assholes who denied medical care because they were concerned about the cost. My eyes swept over my scarred torso, remembering each horrific moment and terrifying memory of receiving them. Cigarette burns, scrapes, mottled skin and contorted ropey scars littered my body. I blew out a breath as I slid my fingers over raised scar just beneath my left breast. I thought I was going to die when I received this scar.

There were days I wished I had died that night. It would have been better than enduring the nightmare of my life. Seth deserved so much better than me. He always would …

Flashback






The Ivy

Bella's Dress








LAX Marriott