After making a hasty getaway, saying our goodbyes to Victoria and our friends, we rode back to the hotel in the Town Car provided by Bergdorf’s. Bella was looking out the window, watching at the city inched by. Even at eleven at night, the city was bustling with a frenetic energy and an overabundance of traffic. What should have been a ten minute drive was taking longer than I liked. I was anxious to get back to the hotel and show Bella how much I loved and adored her. We’d shared so much. Now, this was the final connection we would make … sharing one body.
Sharing one soul.
I was eager to be with her in every way. I chose her. I wanted her, only her. I was giving myself to her freely and without any pressure. With Bella, I finally understood what it meant to be in love, to love another. I wanted to give Bella everything and that included me.
My heart.
My mind.
My body.
My soul.
“You’re awfully quiet, Edward,” Bella said quietly, blinking over to me. Her hand was twined in mine, idly tracing her thumb along my knuckles. Each gentler caress of her thumb went straight to my cock, igniting me in flames. It was straining against the zipper of my tuxedo pants, wishing we were back at the hotel already.
“I’m just … reveling that we’re …” I babbled. “This is happening.” I looked at her, staring at her exquisite beauty. She was dressed in her sparkling cocktail dress and her makeup was heavier than normal, but she looked like absolute perfection. “I’m sorry, but it’s surreal. I never thought that I’d ever truly be happy. Not after my childhood and my nightmare of a marriage …”
“Edward,” Bella breathed. “How … can you say that?”
“Let me explain, angel,” I chuckled. “My life was filled with obstacles, some more tragic than others. My marriage was a farce and it molded me into a hateful, angry man. I took out my self-hatred out on my family, my employees. I was lucky that my adoptive parents never gave up on me, loving me unconditionally. I never realized how awful I’d become until you called me on my bullshit all those months ago. That was the wakeup call that I desperately needed. You were the one person who’s seen the real me and you called me on my bullshit.”
“You’ve changed, Edward. Yes, you still have moments where Grinchward comes out,” Bella giggled. “But, for the most part, you’re a loving, compassionate man who will do anything for his friends, his family. More people see the real you than you realize, baby.”
I reached up and caressed her cheek, smiling gently at her. “I like who I am now. Before? I was so angry all the time and it drained me. The anger bubbled beneath my skin like a cancer. Anger and rage at my birth parents, hatred for the system that I was forced into because of their reckless choices and self-loathing for not seeing what my ex-wife was doing to me, in plain sight. Now? I’ve come to realize that the anger was making me, making my life miserable. Will I have lingering trust issues? Yes, but I’m happy with you, with Katie. I trust you with my life and my heart, angel.”
“I love you,” Bella murmured, capturing my hand and kissing my palm. “So much, Edward.”
“I love you more,” I breathed, capturing her lips with mine. We languidly made out in the back of the car until we arrived at the hotel.
“We’re here, Mr. Cullen,” said the driver, interrupting our kisses.
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